Quarterly Review pt.1

Blink blink. It’s already the end of March. One quarter of 2009 gone. So fast. And I thought I was planning what to do for Christmas 2008 just yesterday.

I would not say a lot has changed, since I’m still doing the same old dirty job. Working hours still seems long and weekends still seems wayyyyyyy too short.

I would not say nothing has changed as well. In these three months, I have for the first time,
- Stayed in a hotel all by myself for one whole freaking month already. More to come apparently.
- Traveled in my little car alone. With no one to talk to. No one to help me drive. It’s a little scary at first but I got used to it after an hour or two.
- Eaten alone. All by myself. Okie no big deal for lots of people but big deal for me. Sitting in a mamak stall eating alone, I really feel very alone. The stares make it worst. I cannot eat my nasi kandar without thinking the guy sitting across me is marking me and so going to follow me and kill me when I walk to the car park. But just like driving, I got used to it after a few times.
- Crossed the road alone. I cannot cross road. I always feel that cars will come and bang, I’ll die. I still cannot get used to crossing the road.
- Did banking alone. Nope not online banking. Real banking. Gosh, it was scary okie? People might just come and chop off your hand when all you might be carrying in your purse is merely RM100. Okie. I sound like paranoid psycho bitch. But it is a dangerous world.

Okie. Got to continue working. Continue another day.

What's your level?

I almost forgot.. it’s my birthday soon. Another year older, another year wiser they claimed. Great. So since I am going to be 25, I should have at least reached level 25 in wise-ness. Hmm.. level 25. I wonder how we measure that.

But wait a minute, what if I don’t feel or think that I am 25. Honestly, when strangers asked how old I am, I always, and I mean ALWAYS, take a second or two to count how old I am. I feel like I’ve left high school not that long ago but when I count, holy cow, it’s been looooong.. So, if I fail to feel 25, does that mean my level of wise-ness also fail? Crap.

For your information, I am not, I repeat, NOT a kiddo. Just because I am shorter than average and on the smaller size, I am still a grown-up :P

Thanksgiving

When I was in high school, we celebrated thanksgiving every year. Our teachers will tell us to bring something on that day, either handmade or something small from the gifts shop, and give it to our teachers and friends as a token of appreciations. Most of the time, these gifts were handmade as we were on tight budget and also because we had all the time in the world. However, these were also some of the most thoughtful gifts I’ve received. From bookmark to key chain to potpourris to photo fames. I treasure them dearly in a little box in my room.

As times passes by, from college and then to university and then to work field, I’ve slowly and unintentionally forget all about thanksgiving. Not only have I forgotten all about getting gifts to my dear friends and close one, I’ve also from time to time forgot to be thankful for everything that’s around me.

So I’m going to list down everything I am thankful for even though Thanksgiving is over (just in case I forgot about them again):-

I am thankful for my wonderful friends.
Wei – Whom I’ve known for ages. Not only I’ve known you for ages, we’ve been close all these years and I think that is rare. Not everyone I’ve known since primary school is as close as we are today. The bond that we have is something no money in the world can buy.
Babi Wong – Whom I’ve been through so many up and downs with. Though, I’ve not known you since forever, in fact, we only got closer when we are in uni, but you’ve have been there for me and we’ve shared some of our deepest thoughts together.
Ann – Whom I’ve shared some of the craziest moments with. From high school till now, you’ve always managed to me laugh.
Aunty – Whom I’ve managed to learn so many things from. We’ve shared our laughter and also our life/work philosophies. Thanks for offering your balcony to me.
Lil boy – Whom I’ve had plenty of fun gossiping and bitching to. You’ve also managed to gross me to death with some of your stories.
Che – Whom I’ve managed to lean on at times. You’ve took care of me just like how a sister would.

I am thankful for that guy in my life.
You’ve have keep up with all the nonsense I put you through. You’ve made me feel so special; I do not feel a tiny winy bit ordinary with you. You’ve showered me with care and gifts I treasure so much. You’ve also managed to bore me with monotone voice. I am thankful I have you.

I am thankful for my job.
It’s giving me a decent pay. Though I do not really like some part of it because I think it’s really sad but I cannot deny that I like some other part of it. Plus, I am learning something out of it. Something Wei has taught me to be thankful about.

I am thankful for my family.
My simple and modest family members. Thankful I do not have to celebrate my parent’s wedding anniversary in a 5-star hotel with the world watching. Thankful my mummy do not need to dress up in some Hawaiian girl outfit for her 40th birthday. Thankful I am driving a smaller car than my boss. Thankful I can practically park my car anywhere and no one will purposely ruin my car.

I am thankful for the great food I’ve tried and eaten.

I am thankful for the amazing places I’ve visited.

I am thankful for my quick temper and equally quick forgetfulness.

I am thankful for who I am today.

Christmas Mood

Christmas is one month away. I am excited like hell. I cannot wait for Christmas to come about. I even bought my Christmas dress already. I don’t care. I am going to wear it on Christmas. Even if it means wearing it at home facing the four walls, I must still wear my Christmas dress.

I’ve been humming Christmas songs like a kid for the whole freaking weekend. I got annoyed when shops and eateries don’t play Christmas songs. Why are they playing sad heartbroken songs when it’s such a festive to celebrate?

Frosty the snowman,
was a jolly happy soul,
with a corncob pipe and a button nose,
and two eyes made out of coal…

Ok. You got the idea
I am not a Christian. I just *heart* Christmas.

I am that mad.

Oh-So-Random

I just got back from my company trip in Phuket. So coincidentally, when we were there, there were some commotions in the Airport. Apparently the local news made quite a hoo-hah about it but honestly, it was rather peaceful in Patong area itself. Shrugs. My daddy was super worried because of the news and he was not able to reach me as my phone ran out of batteries. Amazing how everything can be so coincidental. Hmmp..

I saw someone without her usual make-up one day. Bloody hell. Scared the hell out of me. She looks horrible.

I dreamt that I lost my phone again. Gosh. The feeling is scary man.

Talking about my phone, I was trying to clean up some old messages on my phone the other day and I read some of my old messages. Some people can be very pretentious. So fake that it scares me. Sigh. I am still speechless. I wonder what they feel sometimes.

Talking about dream, I dreamt that He’s going to get married. To his ex-girlfriend. I was so angry in my dream okie? But I think about it now, I think it’s so so so funny. Wahahahha..

He thinks that I have weird dream all the time.

I found out a friend of mine has a blog. Weird blog. So weird. Yet so funny.

I met Dr. Jason’s girlfriend. Hongkies. But she speaks good English. I am impressed. And she’s not stuck up. Nice girl. I like her.

My harddisk sort of crashed. I found out that I actually have 30GB of pictures. Eh, I didn’t take all of them okie? Some I copied from my friends. Some are pure rubbish pictures. Yes, I know, it’s still damn a lot of pictures. And yes I get it. I am full of crap. I know I know.